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[07 Mar 2009|03:11pm] |
i'm officially going psycho.
i can't stand another minute living in this god forbid house.
it's too fucking country for me.
i'm so sick of this wood paneling.
my eyes are gouging out of my fucking brain.
my knees and feet can never sit still.
it's like my mind is a fucking water wheel that just keeps spinning.
i got surgery on wednesday.
I DON'T FEEL PAIN ANYMORE.
yet my parents insist me staying home and relaxing.
i'm sorry but my home doesn't relax me, it makes me anxious.
relaxing to me is getting away from this fucking place.
i'm currently locked in my room going insane.
i fucking hate the feeling of being caged in.
i mean god forbid a fucking twenty year old can't take care of themselves.
i need to get the fuck out of here.
and fast.
i need to get fucking far away from here.
and fast.
this place is just a constant reminder of how you are probably the biggest mistake ever made.
too bad it'll never be said.
i'm just too opposite.
i'd rather be in a room listening to records and drinking hot tea.
but hey, i don't have that now even.
except the tea.
trust me, my mind is a fucking whirl wind.
it never stops moving.
i can't wait to abandon everything here.
and start something new for myself.
this place isn't my style.
i need to be somewhere so fast, i can't even catch up.
then it makes me feel normal.
i don't even know what i'm talking about.
i'm a fucking koo-koo bird.
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